Pala Negara is experiencing a devastating heartbreak.

The Balinese Australian model—who appeared on Ex on the Beach Couples: Now or Never in 2023—shared that her and Christopher Hunter‘s baby boy died just hours after she gave birth.

Their son Harmony Hunter was born on Aug. 28—20 days after his due date—at 4:27 a.m. “in the most powerful birth of our lives,” but sadly died “peacefully in our arms” at 8 p.m. that night, Negara wrote on Instagram Sept. 7.

“Creating life with the love of my life has been the most profound healing journey I could have never imagined being written into our journey,” she said. “Growing life for nearly ten months, growing our family, falling so deeply in love in a union that was always destined to be, falling in love with the life we have created for our family, birthing life, and then birthing death has been incomprehensible.”

The MTV star continued, “My body feels broken and aches for our baby, the life we grew together. I don’t think we will ever know how to move through this heartbreak.”