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Hayden Panettiere recalls a distressing moment when she was 18 years old in her new memoir, This Is Me: A Reckoning, which was released on Tuesday, May 19. In the book, the Scream VI actress, now 36, recalled being on a celebrity-filled “super yacht,” when a female friend told her to “get in bed” with an older, famous man.

“My body no longer felt like my own,” Hayden recalled in one excerpt from her book, which also delves into her past with addiction, struggles living in the spotlight, her relationships and family.

Hayden only referred to the man as a “famous thirty-something British singer-songwriter.” She complied with her friend’s demand by getting into bed.

“As soon as the door clicked close, my survival instinct kicked in,” the Heroes alum wrote in the book, before revealing what she told the unnamed man.

Upon leaving the room, Hayden began to pack up her things to leave the yacht.

“I felt like I’d been kicked in the face,” she wrote, referring to the betrayal she felt by the unnamed female friend.

The release of Hayden’s book comes one week after she appeared on Jay Shetty’s “On Purpose” podcast to discuss the memoir and, particularly, the yacht incident.

“The fact that I was 18, even though I’d lived such a huge life and I thought I was oh so mature at 18 … scientifically, your frontal lobes don’t develop until we’re what, 25, 26? ” Hayden pointed out in the May 11 episode.

She added that the bedroom demand from the woman “took [her] by surprise.”